ANGEL'S JOURNAL

" THE CHOSEN ONE "

As I write this, I’m watching Paris sleeping beside me.   She could have died tonight but thankfully didn’t.   Sometimes I wonder if I’m a jinx to her.   So much has happened to her, and I can’t help but blame myself.   Hopefully things will get better and she can regain the strength I see in her.   I have the feeling I may need to draw on that strength sooner or later.

Tonight I realised that I don’t love Buffy anymore; I’m finally over her.   Paris is the one I love now; she’s the one I have chosen.   Not Buffy.   I never knew if I could trust Buffy completely given what we are.   But I know I can trust Paris.   And I feel she trusts me despite her now knowing about my past.

Spike is coming to L.A. to kill me.   Last year he tried and failed, just like he will this time.   Life always gets interesting when my boy is around.   A part of me is actually looking forward to seeing what inventive way he comes up with to try and kill me.   And what is he blaming me for this time?   If it’s not one thing, it’s another.   I guess I’ll find out soon enough.

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